Making Waves

Still feeling blue today about the state of my relationship. So many of my friends who have older kids have told us that this is the most difficult stage in the marriage ~ raising toddlers. We try to be mindful of that and openly discuss it. But sometimes it's still hard.....But both of us are very aware of the fact that someday it will just be he and I alone in this big ole house and if we have become strangers, forever is gonna be a long long time.

I just wish I knew how to reconnect with things get like this. Sometimes I just don't have the energy to try, and I can tell he doesn't either. Usually these episodes resolve themselves, as I am sure this one will...but the rough seas of the journey to the resolution are making me sea sick! We had a heart to heart last night, but it really resolved nothing. Sometimes it's like the solutions are right in front of us, but we don't have the energy to reach for them. And sometimes I think it is just the nature of a man to be completely clueless about what a woman needs....and it's is just the nature of a woman to be unable to ask....Somehow having to ask feels like a defeat. I want him to just know.