Chicken Little

Well as some of you know today was the day I was supposed to go to the Dr. to discuss my fears about possibly being bipolar.

I have to suck it up and admit I cancelled the appointment. Call me chicken. Place me in Egypt. Perhaps I am in denial. However after a long discussion with my husband, who is of the opinion that having 7 children 5 days a week, one with special needs who is prone to repetitive noises all day, a 3 and 4 year old who take the crown for Drama Prom King and Queen of the Year, a 2 year old who has no fear of anything dangerous whatsoever, in addition to 3 school age children who are rambunctious and bored.....I decided, who wouldn't be nuts right now?! I also have 3 other jobs to worry about on top of this job.

So here's the plan...because I am painfully aware that perhaps we (hubby and I) are in denial. I am going to wait until school starts and see how I am feeling. Actually I have pretty much felt fine since I posted about my fears of bipolar disorder. I don't know if perhaps I just needed to vent or if I am kidding myself. My husband swears he has not noticed any of my 'odd' symptoms except for occasionally this summer, since I have taken on a heavier work load. Of course in his perfect world I wouldn't work at all....but that doesn't pay the bills.

I am almost ashamed to admit that I have not kept my commitment to get this checked out. But for the moment I feel fine. We shall see.